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New beginnings

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You guessed it! I’ve been feeling the urge to write. Coming out of a somewhat chaotic time for me.

So much was happening and then I got ill. Who’d have seen that coming?! But in the little pockets of time among all of this, my brain space increased. I felt myself making more notes on my thoughts again, more of a pull to this platform, more sharing in general, and more of a call to read. I can tell when my thoughts are becoming clearer – when I’m interested in reading again and when I open my notes on my phone more often. Not even to make notes for longer form pieces but simply recording my thoughts. I think I’ve mentioned before that writing is so much about, not freeing up physical time, but the mental capacity to give and release with some clarity.

I’m excited to start again. Not just here, but in lots of other areas. Some big and some little re-starts, that may be re-occurring in months to come. . . but I don’t think that devalues these starts. I haven’t fallen off the wagon, or back-tracked, I’m not getting back on it, I’m just evolving slowly, taking my foot on and off the accelerator as needs be. (There’s no stalling here, but there’s room for it, if it happens.)

I’ve dealt with quite a lot of sadness this year in a short amount of time, with such polarising happiness and excitement, that I often feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop — if you’re familiar with that expression — waiting for my saddest moments to overwhelm me, but thankfully it hasn’t yet come. I could attribute this partly to my focus on all the newness, and the knowledge that I can create new beginnings in small ways at any moment. I’m writing in a new environment, I’m nurturing new relationships, I’m thinking about new goals that require a new focus, I’m enjoying a new season (literally), a new chapter, and in some respects a new me. I’m enjoying getting to know her and excited to learn more. I believe there’s always a you before, during, and after an event or period of life. I’ve always been fascinated by identity.

A new beginning may seem funny in November, but I plan on creating small new beginnings constantly over the next six months, next year. . . years. . . and I’m excited to do this whenever I feel called to something.

Even though this new me, I believe, started some time ago, there’s still small new beginnings constantly.

My next new beginnings might look like. . . starting Christmas a little early. (I know – I said the C word!) Starting on a new path to some more training and running goals. Starting to say yes to more things, after a period of learning to say no – like meeting new people, and booking in events and activities. A little way off maybe. . . but starting to prioritise my own projects and career again.

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Are you contemplating any new starts? What do they look like?

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